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Friday, May 13, 2005

hmm...

heys..erm..well heard what josh said when i am toking over the phone with joce..its like what kind of skin i am using doesn't suit me at all..rite..i noe its all girly with the bikini and pinky things...so its not like me and doesn't suit me..sighz..i can neva find the perfect blogskin that suits me..but i will find another one thats not like this one..to please those that find this not like me and stuff..haha..yar...

came back home not long ago..spent a night at gerlyn's place then came back...yesterday i just slcked off my butt..today..i am going to meet my ex-coach,uncle richard who taught me during primary school and won the gold medals for the school..yipee..haha...meeting him at kim seng bowling alley later with his school that he's training them up for the c division that is coming up..hehs..he wsa shocked to see me on wed...or surprised...he was so fierce with the scgs girls larh...i got the shock of my life when i saw him train them...i was like oh my gosh...is it becoz i am here thats why he is soo fierce with them...so i went out of the bowling alley to take a walk...coz i got kinda itchy finger when i saw them bowl so had to take a walk to take my mind off bowling..

alot of things happen...and here i announce that kenneth is not my darling or watsoever...he is a fren...normal fren not anione close to me..so stop making teasing me watsoever..i get really annoyed and bugged by this...well...i dun think i can have a bf or watsoever...coz i am tempermental okie...very tempermental..hahs..going on is that Alex is not gay..forgot to officially state that in my other blogg..so for you out there that thinks Alex is gay..dun worry he is not!..he is straight..unlike someone..joce,tan,alex should noe who i mean..hahs..

now i am looking for a new blogskin becoz of what josh had said..and new songs...and updating my post..sorry no photos at the moment...later meeting taugey together with uncle richard..then..well..i going joce place for the nite...i guess.then tmr morning i have training at orchid country club..yupps..

joce..wat i meant last nite was that....i don't trust pple that easily...i dunno who i shuld trust or not...i have a feeling as if we weren't besties in the first place to begin with...as if i weas being treated only as a fren to you..and be at your beck and call like that..everytime we go out together with tan...you both always walk by yourselves and leave me behind...it was as if i didn't matter at that time and only after a few mins then you ask where am i which i get really pissed off by this...i rather not be in this besties thing if it was like that forever..i can't take it...even ying chong and my frens at school they will always wait or even if they leave me behind yihui would stop and wait for me to come then walk together..i hate to tell u this by since this blogg is to voice out watever is in my heart i guess this is where i shall tell all my stuff thats bottling up in my heart..which is wat i am doing now...now you get what i mean..i feel inferior to u and tan..i feel that me and both of you and tan interests are different...its like we don't really click...sorry to say this..but i reallly wanted to let it out..if you dun want to be frens animore with me thats fine..the most i will be like shermaine..avoiding the place where we would most often see each other..or pretend that we dun noe each other even on the street or at gatherings and parties..shall end here...bye..

* my life's so complicated
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